Now sketching Keronian drawings, I remembered stuffs that I went through in the past here in Deviantart.
Looking back at my old stuffs, seeing the alien frogs drawings I feel nostalgic yet saddened, remembering there were joyful moments and not pleasant moments.
The joyful moments would be me enjoying drawing stuffs and had quite the good time here, not caring much about stuffs as the me in the past was more carefree in life.
The unpleasant moments would be me disappointing people because of me went hiatus for uncertain time because of real life issues. I am disappointed at myself, yet I could not do much about it as it has happened and I cannot change the bitter fact.
I made mistakes and that's that, no excuses as it did happened.
Currently i'm trying to become a better person, while personally it would be quite hard for me because it is still my bad habit that had been ingrained deep within to make mistakes that I could have prevented with ease. Bad judgements I would say.
I would still feel unpleasant and pleasant at the same time even if I publish this journal, because it is not that easy to make the change in your inner mental state.
Would it make me feel better? Maybe yes, maybe not.
But I just would like to say i'm truly sorry for my mistakes, precisely to the ones who are disappointed with me. You are free to forgive me or not, it is your choice.
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Man, i'm feeling melancholic over this thing.
I think it's because I consider it as a personal thing for myself, and it's involving other people as well.
Thanks for your attention, and I hope for you to have a good day.